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wooliefrand) wrote2015-09-30 02:57 pm
wooliefrand) wrote2015-09-30 02:57 pm
Charonquest
WHO: Lily
WHERE: Lily Barn
WHEN: Early Day 36, post ritual!
[alright nerds lets go get your emotional support shepherd]
WHERE: Lily Barn
WHEN: Early Day 36, post ritual!
[alright nerds lets go get your emotional support shepherd]
Re: final
[there's a rush of feeling over him, when he turns the knob. care and curiosity about both Ananke and the Scarab, and a desire to see Ananke be able to go a week without grief he shouldn't have to take and isn't trained to. the low, growing despair and anger at being unable to protect him. stymied guilt -- he's never considered himself the best brotherly or authority figure, not for someone who needs normalcy and stability and gentleness like Ananke does.
the relief that Ananke's willing to forgive him for it; the nagging feeling of inadequacy, because Ananke shouldn't have to forgive him for it. he can do better. he will do better. a sense of admiration for a heart and a sense of empathy and emotional stability from Ananke he perceives as far larger than his own.
the door opens.
he gets an impression of blinding silver spilling out from within, over him, through the halls, through the doors, through everything, clean and cold and implacable. and this is the additional truth he receives, in this moment, of what hid here to preserve itself:
if need be, it will kill for you, and if need be, it will die for you. someday, somewhere. but that's the least important part of it. because before then, it will know you and perceive you. it will never turn aside from you. it will plot for you. it will move what must be moved for you, whether what must be moved is molehill or mountain. it will bind you as long as that's what serves. it will let you go, when it's time to let go.
it is not omniscient, superhuman, or infallible. it has very little room for mercy, for pity, for softness; it was partially born that way, and partially shaped. but it is on your side, and it intimately understands duty and care, and for all of you, it is trying to widen its horizons.
the rush of it carries him out of the dark maze, on a sea of shining light.
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